I made decision a years back to live my life as few regrets
as possible. Granted it hasn’t always been easy, but I’ve put on my brave heart
and face to tried and stay true to my word. It’s not easy to make major changes
and major moves in your life, especially when it involves leaving the ones you
love behind. It feels like there are so many reasons not to do something, but
the one compelling reason that shouts from your guts, is the one that keeps u
going.
Sometimes I’ve been wondering where I would be right now if I’ve
made different decisions in my life. If maybe I had stayed with my family all
the time, waiting for a good luck to come rolling to me...urghh...or maybe I’ve
been better if I had not pursue my masters before but then still it was my
dream...To achieve my mission of being an educational person and getting
involve in this educational path…
I’ve been having a lot of ‘what if moments’ lately…with the
hopes again and again was given to me but then still it turns out like ‘crash!!!’..Thinking
what’s the best in your life and was everything you have done worth for u…having
this type of life cliché ‘treating the
one u love like u want them to treat u’…but then life is always not fair…no
more hope...Thing’s always don’t happen the way u want it to be, but when they
do, it’s always right on time…. :)
HOPE is the little voice you hear whisper in heart saying ‘maybe’
when it seems the entire world in your mind is shouting ‘no!’….tepuk dada tanya hati or ketuk kepala tanya akal..
They say the people u love the most are also the one who
have the ability to hurt u the most. I do experienced this and it’s like a blade
straight to the heart...might say luckily I’m still alive...Hmm...But still the
most amazing thing is that it doesn’t kill you, as cliché as it sounds, it does
only make you stronger.
The hurt and bitterness may linger for a while...Maybe not
that ‘a while’...It does takes time, but soon it fades when we ourselves let it go. The longer
we hold onto it, the more it eats at the core of our heart and may destroy you...Sometimes
we didn’t realize that when one door is closed in front of you, there is still
a lot of doors waiting for you to come in and might be a better door and better
room for you to be more appreciated and respected.
Of course we do have experienced, learnt few things about
people around us in our lifetime. Me myself have learnt that no other living
creature can produce as much affection as another person and that almost no
other living creature can hurt u more. I’ve learnt that people can be fickle,
but then they are also caring.
I’ve learnt that people are cruel, they make mistakes that
they sometimes have bad judgment, that they say hurtful things without a second
thought, but most importantly, I’ve learnt that people need forgiveness.
“People…You can never
change the way they feel. Better let them do just what they will. For they
will. If you let them steal your heart from you...” You can’t change them but you can change how
you react.
